Monday, May 08, 2006

Conflicted

Oh god oh god oh god.

I have just turned down a job. It was a good job. It paid well and it was what I wanted to do. But it wasn't in Saskatchewan. And I wanted to stay here.

Have I just made a huge mistake?

Why oh WHY is it so difficult? I feel like I'm being torn in two: What I love to do isn't corresponding very well with where I want to live.

I feel like I'm going to throw up.

2 comments:

librarychik said...

oh man Violette, what to do?

I think that yes, it is important to try to find a job where you want to be, but you also have to consider what you want to do.

Since you turned the job down I would not waste any more time regretting what is already done. But just enjoy the trip that is waiting on your horizon and worry about job hunting when you get back. At that time you can examine your priorities and come to some conclusion regarding your location vs avocation.

Really... sometimes we just have to go with our gut...

hugs

Ash said...

Librarychik is right - try not to worry about something that's already done. Your first instinct is usually the right instinct. I've found that if you wait for a bit, things will just take their course. I never thought I'd get a job in a library living in small town Alberta - I moved here to be with my family. But, one short year later and I'm moving into the Head Librarian position here. Saskatchewan is filled with cool library positions...you'll get one of them soon...or you'll find a reason that actually makes you want to leave Saskatchewan. This job obviously wasn't the right one to tear you away. :)

And hey, vacation! Relax, enjoy, breathe...

*hugs*