But I just have to keep reminding myself that if I really wanted to, I could have that right now. But I didn't want to settle for just that. In order to have that, I would have had to sacrifice some other things in my life that are very, very good. And maybe someday I will have those other things too... but only if I know that it will make me happier in the long run than I am now. And right now I'm quite happy as I am.
I was listening to Alanis today, and her song "Incomplete" has some very good advice:
I have been running so sweaty my whole life
Urgent for a finish line
And I have been missing the rapture this whole time
Of being forever incomplete
Ever adventurous and torturous
But never done
Life's a journey, not a destination. There's nowhere that I have to be this year, or in five years. And it's good to remember that.